Tuesday, February 23, 2010

brides maid and about to upgrade my computer

I'm just going through the motions. I know nothing I do or don't do wont be

good enough for this world. I'll never be able to function properly for the

way the world works. I'm a loser and always have been and always will be. I

don't ever have the energy to even truly try.

On sunday the 21st Marcie came over and then goofio, his sister natalie,

brianna and bella picked us up and we met john and danielle at sonic. the food

there is not nearly as good as we hoped it would be. john and danielle and

marcie then came back to my place. marcie had to be home by dinner time but

john and danielle stayed until like close to midnight. danielle asked me to be

a brides maid. we looked online at wedding stuff and went to starbucks and

then to a little grocery store i'll never go in again. i bought cough syrup

and cough drops. the store smelled like cats and was dirty and had expired


within the next day or two i plan to upgrade to windows 7. hopefully that wont

be too hard and i'll be back onlne within a few hours. i have no one i can

call for help with this kind of thing tho so i'm scared. i'm almost done

saving everything i want off this computer.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

been too long....random snippets

2010 - New Year but same shit.

It's been a long time since I've posted a blog. I guess mostly I have been avoiding trying to form words from the mess of thoughts and feelings that overwhelm my brain.

Christmas came and went. I got a lot of stuff but the one thing I really wanted was an external hard drive which I did not get.

Big Bear trip came and went.

I went up to Big Bear with Danielle, John, Jolie, Eddie, Sergio, Brianna and Bella for the weekend. John and Eddie picked me up around 11am on friday February 5. The three of us went to Taco Bell/Pizza Hut before going to their house. Danielle was meeting us at John's house and we then had to pack the car before John picked his sister up from work and we piled into the car for the long drive. The car was very full. It was snowing and raining most of the trip up there.

It's been so long since I've written that theres just too much to say and I'll never get it said.

Yesterday was valentines. Mom stopped by on her way to work before dawn with a box of chocolate covered cherries and on her way home with 2 cantalopes and 3 bananas. Danielle messaged me on yahoo around a quarter to midnight.

Danielle (2/14/2010 11:46:05 PM): guess what i got engaged
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:46:09 PM): how was your valentines
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:46:12 PM): seriously???!!!!
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:46:19 PM): he finally did it
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:46:21 PM): CONGRATS!!!!
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:46:28 PM): thanks i am excited

When I asked how he proposed her answer made me laugh.
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:47:04 PM): how did he propose?
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:47:06 PM): and the one time he actually listened to me he got exactly what i wanted
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:47:17 PM): in john fashion
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:47:33 PM): lol
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:48:04 PM): we went to starbucks drive through then he parked the car to give me my valentines card and gift the ring was the gift in the bag
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:48:25 PM): ah hehe
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:48:29 PM): first he did tell me to picture a beach in front of me
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:48:54 PM): how did your mom react?
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:49:07 PM): my mom already knew

Danielle (2/14/2010 11:51:01 PM): I know everyone is asking when the wedding is going to be where we going to live etc. I tell them not to rush john still has the figure of the ring in is head and how he going to pay that lets not scare him off
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:51:19 PM): lol
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:51:41 PM): yeah its enough that he proposed. one step at a time. at least you guys are taking steps now
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:51:53 PM): thank you it has been long time coming specially after big bear when we talked he said he thought i was going to break up with him
Jennelle (2/14/2010 11:52:01 PM): you were at a stand still for so long
Danielle (2/14/2010 11:52:26 PM): now kidding i felt like my feet were in cement