I haven't been doing much of anything lately besides sleeping and playing a silly game called Egg Breaker on facebook. It's a pretty simple game to play. You get so many hammers a day and break eggs to find prizes and gold and there are a few ways to get more hammers. It's addicting.
I haven't done Wii Fit in way too long and really should do it again, and start doing it every day like I was. I'm a big lump on the couch and good for nothing. Useless. Hopeless.
My apartment is a mess. It's never really clean though. Just ask my mom. She'll tell you what a lazy slob I am. She's right. I am discusting.
We were supposed to go work on cleaning out mom's storage on saturday but the twins father messed that up by playing one of his games wso mom's day was waisted waiting for him to show up to pick up the twins.
The only thing I've won from sweepstakes recently is an Exerget Temporal Scanner. It's a thermometer you run across your forehead. I'm giving it to mom for the twins since the thermometer they have is old and takes forever.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Lost my layout
I screwed up my blogger layout and lost all my buttons and links and such. I'm sorry to those I had buttons for and don't have them anymore. I thought I had a backup but apparently I don't. Will be working on getting a better layout soon. Anyone I had a link to and don't now if you let me know I will replace it asap.
Now any of the layouts besides the ones blogger provides won't work at all.
Now any of the layouts besides the ones blogger provides won't work at all.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
First week of April
It's April. I hate April. I started my period March 31st. So the month starts off even worse than most Aprils.
On April first I went and paid my rent and got a check from my landlord to pay for the installation of the phone jack. Then I went to walmart. I spent way too much money. I got some snacks and flavored water and pads and some lightbublbs, and a game to put up to give to Danielle as a birthday gift and 2 pairs of slippers and a pack of batteries for mom and a bunch of dog food.
I did WiiFit on the first and the second after not doing it for a couple weeks. Surprisingly my weight was actually down a few pounds.
On the second I didn't do much of anything. I stayed in bed most of the day. I got dressed and went and got the mail. All I got was ads though and a coupon for a free kashi frozen dinner I'd ordered.
I'm 28 years old now. Blah. I never wanted to be alive this long. I spent my birthday at Disneyland though and got to meet someone from the Disneyland email group I'm on. I also got to meet a couple of other people including a cast member who moderates the email group. I spent the first few hours alone and most of it I spent in DCA (Disney's Construction Adventure!) riding Toy Story Midway Mania. When Dillon got out of school mom drove him down there and we spent the rest of the day there until almost closing. I bought a grey hoodie sweatshirt with my birthday gift card and still have some money left on the card. Me and Dillon went to Denny's afterwards.
On Saturday I went over to grandma's house. She made banana pudding eventually and gave me $25. When mom got home from easter shopping she gave me a birthday card with $40 in it. I ate way too much pudding.
Sunday was a busy day too. Marcie and her boyfriend Eddie and her mom came over in the early afternoon. They brought gifts. Marcie's mom brought me a Hoops and Yoyo talking card with $10 in it and a package of sugar free peeps (which I ate immediately!). Marcie gave me 3 packages. The bottom one was a box of Oreo thin crisps 100 calorie packs. The middle one was a package of Garfield envelopes. The smallest one was a cube maze with stuff in the middle. To open it one must get the metal ball through the plastic maze. I gave marcie this maze a couple of years ago for her birthday and it took her several months to get it open. Payback is a bitch aint it? haha. Marcie did manage to get my vcr/dvd player hooked back up and didn't mess anything else up.
While they were still here Danielle called and that evening her and John came over. They ordered pizza and we read fmylife.com and went to Starbucks and then played wii fit. Danielle and John both worked on the maze and were ready to throw it too.
Last night though I had the maze sitting on my couch and when I reached for something on the floor it fell off of the couch and came open! Inside it was a peppermint chapstick, a Garfield and Odie magnet, a $10 bill, and a $25 Amazon.com gift certificate! Very cool!
On monday we had my car towed to Dyson because it has a puddle under it of some fluid leaking. I had John check the oil while he was here and he said it was empty. The mechanic told us not to drive it so I had to pay $55 for it to be towed. The mechanic had the car all day and says there is no leak and all the fluids are full. He even claimed that I had TOO MUCH oil which and that he had added no fluids at all. It is impossible that there was too much oil because the last time oil was put in the car that mechanic was the one to do it! It's so frustrating. I feel taken. I looked the company up online on the Better Business bureau and they have a C-. Not exactly the most impressive grade.
On tuesday I had a pdoc appointment but just stayed in bed the entire day instead. When I picked up my car late monday I ran by staples on the way home to buy a plastic id holder thingy to keep my Disneyland pass in since the one I bought at the park in January broke on this last trip. I'd asked the cast members inside the store I boought it in what I could get that would last longer and they suggested I get the kind they use for their id cards and that they bought them at Staples. I got a 10 pack for a little over $4.
When I got home I went to bed. This was about 6:30pm. I stayed there in bed until after 5pm on Tuesday. I just couldn't deal with anything. I don't know how to face all the shit that life brings up. I just can't deal. If I'd had candles to blow out for my birthday it would have been "I wish the world would end/I wish I could die already." I am useless, hopeless, good for nothing.
On April first I went and paid my rent and got a check from my landlord to pay for the installation of the phone jack. Then I went to walmart. I spent way too much money. I got some snacks and flavored water and pads and some lightbublbs, and a game to put up to give to Danielle as a birthday gift and 2 pairs of slippers and a pack of batteries for mom and a bunch of dog food.
I did WiiFit on the first and the second after not doing it for a couple weeks. Surprisingly my weight was actually down a few pounds.
On the second I didn't do much of anything. I stayed in bed most of the day. I got dressed and went and got the mail. All I got was ads though and a coupon for a free kashi frozen dinner I'd ordered.
I'm 28 years old now. Blah. I never wanted to be alive this long. I spent my birthday at Disneyland though and got to meet someone from the Disneyland email group I'm on. I also got to meet a couple of other people including a cast member who moderates the email group. I spent the first few hours alone and most of it I spent in DCA (Disney's Construction Adventure!) riding Toy Story Midway Mania. When Dillon got out of school mom drove him down there and we spent the rest of the day there until almost closing. I bought a grey hoodie sweatshirt with my birthday gift card and still have some money left on the card. Me and Dillon went to Denny's afterwards.
On Saturday I went over to grandma's house. She made banana pudding eventually and gave me $25. When mom got home from easter shopping she gave me a birthday card with $40 in it. I ate way too much pudding.
Sunday was a busy day too. Marcie and her boyfriend Eddie and her mom came over in the early afternoon. They brought gifts. Marcie's mom brought me a Hoops and Yoyo talking card with $10 in it and a package of sugar free peeps (which I ate immediately!). Marcie gave me 3 packages. The bottom one was a box of Oreo thin crisps 100 calorie packs. The middle one was a package of Garfield envelopes. The smallest one was a cube maze with stuff in the middle. To open it one must get the metal ball through the plastic maze. I gave marcie this maze a couple of years ago for her birthday and it took her several months to get it open. Payback is a bitch aint it? haha. Marcie did manage to get my vcr/dvd player hooked back up and didn't mess anything else up.
While they were still here Danielle called and that evening her and John came over. They ordered pizza and we read fmylife.com and went to Starbucks and then played wii fit. Danielle and John both worked on the maze and were ready to throw it too.
Last night though I had the maze sitting on my couch and when I reached for something on the floor it fell off of the couch and came open! Inside it was a peppermint chapstick, a Garfield and Odie magnet, a $10 bill, and a $25 Amazon.com gift certificate! Very cool!
On monday we had my car towed to Dyson because it has a puddle under it of some fluid leaking. I had John check the oil while he was here and he said it was empty. The mechanic told us not to drive it so I had to pay $55 for it to be towed. The mechanic had the car all day and says there is no leak and all the fluids are full. He even claimed that I had TOO MUCH oil which and that he had added no fluids at all. It is impossible that there was too much oil because the last time oil was put in the car that mechanic was the one to do it! It's so frustrating. I feel taken. I looked the company up online on the Better Business bureau and they have a C-. Not exactly the most impressive grade.
On tuesday I had a pdoc appointment but just stayed in bed the entire day instead. When I picked up my car late monday I ran by staples on the way home to buy a plastic id holder thingy to keep my Disneyland pass in since the one I bought at the park in January broke on this last trip. I'd asked the cast members inside the store I boought it in what I could get that would last longer and they suggested I get the kind they use for their id cards and that they bought them at Staples. I got a 10 pack for a little over $4.
When I got home I went to bed. This was about 6:30pm. I stayed there in bed until after 5pm on Tuesday. I just couldn't deal with anything. I don't know how to face all the shit that life brings up. I just can't deal. If I'd had candles to blow out for my birthday it would have been "I wish the world would end/I wish I could die already." I am useless, hopeless, good for nothing.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
leaving soon to pick up car
I've had a migraine for like a week. Also haven't had a car in a week and a half. Blown head gasket and something having to do with a hose as well. I'm supposed to get it back this morning.
I realized today that I don't think I've seen another person since a week ago wednesday. I've been alone in my apartment since then. I went outside today (well technically yesterday) and took out the trash and went to the mail box.
It's like 10am now on saturday and my headache is not as bad today and I've been able to work on a list and enter a bunch of sweeps.
It's almost 11am. Mom called half an hour or so ago and said they'd be here in a little while. I'm almost ready to go.
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Now playing: Trace Adkins - Then They Do
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I realized today that I don't think I've seen another person since a week ago wednesday. I've been alone in my apartment since then. I went outside today (well technically yesterday) and took out the trash and went to the mail box.
It's like 10am now on saturday and my headache is not as bad today and I've been able to work on a list and enter a bunch of sweeps.
It's almost 11am. Mom called half an hour or so ago and said they'd be here in a little while. I'm almost ready to go.
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Now playing: Trace Adkins - Then They Do
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Friday, March 20, 2009
stuff thats been sitting on my computer for like weeks...
On friday night me and Dillon met Marcie and her boyfriend Eddie at Dillon's high school to see the play Harvey that Kylee was working backstage for and her girlfriend was in. Eddie had never seen a high school play or Harvey. Me and Marcie were house managers for Harvey our senior year of high school and have had a running joke about that pooka ever since. Everyone went to Norm's restuarant afterwards which was very busy. Kylee sat with her friends from the play and Dillon, me, Marcie, and Eddie sat in a booth. I ordered french toast and eggs (at Marcie's request because she enjoys watching me eat eggs). I ate both fried eggs and one piece of the french toast and felt full. By the time we left my stomach was killing me and kept getting worse and I had to use my mom's bathroom when I got to their house to drop off Kylee and Dillon. I had a stomach ache the rest of the night/morning.
Wednesday
I started a blog a week and a half ago and have written since but my POS computer didn't save my changes several times. On the Sunday after that Sergio, John, and Danielle came over. We went to Olive Garden and Sergio paid. I can't afford stuff like that. Then they figured out how to get my Wii working but not my dvd player. They said I need another wire or something.
Saturday
It's mom's birthday. My car is at the mechanics though so I can't go over there unless she comes and picks me up. She has the pick the twins up and then she is going down to Disneyland alone to get her birthday gift card and buying herself a sweatjacket. I'm glad she's spending the money on something for herself. She always puts everyone else first.
My car is in the shop and is going to cost over a thousand dollars to fix. It's got a few things wrong with it but the expensive part is a blown head gasket. They said to fix it most of the engine has to be taken out to even get to it.
Sunday
It's almost 7am. My internet has been down for pretty much the whole night. I'm lonely and urgy and hurting. My back has been killing me the last couple days. Not sure why though.
Wednesday
I started a blog a week and a half ago and have written since but my POS computer didn't save my changes several times. On the Sunday after that Sergio, John, and Danielle came over. We went to Olive Garden and Sergio paid. I can't afford stuff like that. Then they figured out how to get my Wii working but not my dvd player. They said I need another wire or something.
Saturday
It's mom's birthday. My car is at the mechanics though so I can't go over there unless she comes and picks me up. She has the pick the twins up and then she is going down to Disneyland alone to get her birthday gift card and buying herself a sweatjacket. I'm glad she's spending the money on something for herself. She always puts everyone else first.
My car is in the shop and is going to cost over a thousand dollars to fix. It's got a few things wrong with it but the expensive part is a blown head gasket. They said to fix it most of the engine has to be taken out to even get to it.
Sunday
It's almost 7am. My internet has been down for pretty much the whole night. I'm lonely and urgy and hurting. My back has been killing me the last couple days. Not sure why though.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Long day yesterday
I dropped my PS2 on my toe like an hour ago and my toe still hurts pretty bad. I've been working on a list but as usual not really getting a whole lot accomplished. I never really do. Never really have. Never good enough. I wish I could go to bed but I have an eye doctor appointment today and then have to go over to mom's house since I'll be near them. Went to wal-mart yesterday with a $50 gift card I got from MyPoints and bought grandma some slippers that I have been trying to find since I returned the ones I got her she couldn't wear for Christmas. I also picked up dog food for them and shampoo for the twins. I got myself some dandruff shampoo, some hundred calorie coffee cakes, an adapter to get my Wii and DVD/VCR hooked up again now that I have Direct TV and the guy who installed it said they c an't be hooked up til i get one. blah. I also got some flavored water and some Carmex.
I had spaghetti over at grandma's house with them and helped the twins with their homework. Also took in the time warner boxes so I could get my account closed with them. It was a LONG day. Kylee drove all over in my car. Including two trips to Best Buy cuz she had to take her computer in to be fixed and didn't bring the power cord. Today will probably be almost as long. Blah.
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Now playing: Phantom Planet - can't take it
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I had spaghetti over at grandma's house with them and helped the twins with their homework. Also took in the time warner boxes so I could get my account closed with them. It was a LONG day. Kylee drove all over in my car. Including two trips to Best Buy cuz she had to take her computer in to be fixed and didn't bring the power cord. Today will probably be almost as long. Blah.
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Now playing: Phantom Planet - can't take it
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Monday, February 23, 2009
waste of space
I've been in a bad mood all night. Everything is getting on my nerves and i just want to die. i'm a waste of space and resources and the world would be better off if i didn't exist. i just want to cut and cut til i die. i can't tho. i can't do anything
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
got direct tv and a phone line
It's after eight thirty in the morning on tuesday and I'm still working on the list trying to get as much done as possible before verizon and direct tv people show up.
Its 10:30am and I have a load of laundry in the washer. My bed is covered in stuff but piled nicely. I've realized I won't get any sleep until the verizon and direct tv people come and go. I think I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow but will have to look it up in my notebook. I dont remember for sure what doctor or what time.
My doctor appointment is at 3:45 and it's with the gastroenterologist. So I'll take mom her whoppers afterwards.
Two guys showed up right at noon and installed a phone jack. They were not here very long. Maybe 20 minutes. When they left I called grandma on the house phone and talked to her for a few minutes. I was about to walk over and get my mail when the house phone rang and it was the direct tv guy. It's about ten til one now and he has looked at where the cable wires are and drilled a while behind the bookshelf in the livingroom near the hole for the cable wire and is outside now hammering on something.
The direct tv and phone work fine. Still have to learn how to use all the features on the DVR and my cordless phone as well.
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Now playing: Switchfoot - Love Is The Movement
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Its 10:30am and I have a load of laundry in the washer. My bed is covered in stuff but piled nicely. I've realized I won't get any sleep until the verizon and direct tv people come and go. I think I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow but will have to look it up in my notebook. I dont remember for sure what doctor or what time.
My doctor appointment is at 3:45 and it's with the gastroenterologist. So I'll take mom her whoppers afterwards.
Two guys showed up right at noon and installed a phone jack. They were not here very long. Maybe 20 minutes. When they left I called grandma on the house phone and talked to her for a few minutes. I was about to walk over and get my mail when the house phone rang and it was the direct tv guy. It's about ten til one now and he has looked at where the cable wires are and drilled a while behind the bookshelf in the livingroom near the hole for the cable wire and is outside now hammering on something.
The direct tv and phone work fine. Still have to learn how to use all the features on the DVR and my cordless phone as well.
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Now playing: Switchfoot - Love Is The Movement
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Tuesday, February 17, 2009
preparing for verizon
Saturday night was shit like every other night. Cut my leg because I'm too stupid to even get gmail to work. I screw everything up. Wish I could just cease to exist.
Slept all day Sunday. It's now sunday night and working on list. Tomorrow I need to go buy a phone. I need to finish cleaning tonight and tomorrow.
Sunday night I took a shower and worked on list.
Slept most of the day monday and then went to walmart to buy a cordless phone. Also bought some 100 calorie brownies and cinamon streussal coffee cakes. Also bought a thing of whoppers to give my mom.
It's now tuesday morning and I am working on a list as usual. Nothing really exciting happening. Getting a little done but very slowly. Need to get the area around the bedroom tv cleared as a priority.
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Now playing: Savage Garden - The Animal Song remix
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Slept all day Sunday. It's now sunday night and working on list. Tomorrow I need to go buy a phone. I need to finish cleaning tonight and tomorrow.
Sunday night I took a shower and worked on list.
Slept most of the day monday and then went to walmart to buy a cordless phone. Also bought some 100 calorie brownies and cinamon streussal coffee cakes. Also bought a thing of whoppers to give my mom.
It's now tuesday morning and I am working on a list as usual. Nothing really exciting happening. Getting a little done but very slowly. Need to get the area around the bedroom tv cleared as a priority.
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Now playing: Savage Garden - The Animal Song remix
via FoxyTunes
Friday, February 13, 2009
friday
It's 4:21am on friday morning. I'm working on a list. Mom has my car so she can get my 4 siblings here and there all day yesterday and today while her car is in the shop. The day before I drove everyone around and half of yesterday I did. Now I don't have to get up early to take the kids to school and pick them up etc and mom will just call me when it's time to go get her car and she'll have to come here first and then the two of us will take my car over to Toyopros to pick up her van.
The current list is:
1. Walt Disney
2. Sweeps
3. Bedroom
4. Music
5. Journal
6. Bachman
7. sweeps
8. livingroom
9. me
10. blog
11. secret language of eating disorders
12. sweeps
13. bath/hall
14. pictures
15. twitter
16. lives of dax
17. sweeps
18. clothes
19. videos
20. myspace
21. student bible
22. sweeps
23. closet
24. skybluefusion
25. facebook
26. magazines
27. sweeps
28. drawers
29. send danielle music
30. mail
31. women's bible
32. sweeps
33. bleuteam
34. kithcen
35. lists
The current list is:
1. Walt Disney
2. Sweeps
3. Bedroom
4. Music
5. Journal
6. Bachman
7. sweeps
8. livingroom
9. me
10. blog
11. secret language of eating disorders
12. sweeps
13. bath/hall
14. pictures
15. twitter
16. lives of dax
17. sweeps
18. clothes
19. videos
20. myspace
21. student bible
22. sweeps
23. closet
24. skybluefusion
25. facebook
26. magazines
27. sweeps
28. drawers
29. send danielle music
30. mail
31. women's bible
32. sweeps
33. bleuteam
34. kithcen
35. lists
busy week
Tuesday:
Went to group and after waiting nearly half an hour to be called in the two of us (Mary and I) who are the only ones who still seem to attend were told that we won't be having group until March 3rd and if they don't find more members there will be no more Livingwell group.
Working on long list trying to be productive. Want apartment to be really clean before landlords show up in the morning. The bathroom is clean. Floor, toilet, sink, mirror, and tub have all been scrubbed within the last couple of days.
Sunday morning:
Grandma's sister, my great aunt Betty Jo, arrived last night from Arkansas. She has no electricity at all in her area and will not have any for a month or more. Mom and Dillon went and picked Betty Jo up from the airport while Kylee stayed home to help with the twins. Grandma didn't go because she wasnn't feeling well and it's been cold and wet for several days now with several more wet days forcasted.
Tuesday morning:
I give up on my ipod. It will not let me put anything on it. Every time I manage to get more than a few songs on it it gives an error and deletes everything off of the ipod. I need to see if we still have a warrenty on it. Mom bought one when she got it for me from Best Buy but that was Christmas of 2007. It may have only been a 1 year warrenty. I've spent trying to get my ipod to work for several days and nights now and nothing works.
Thursday Morning:
Went to pdoc on tuesday. cried between there and moms house. got gas in car, couldn't get gas cap on right. picked up dillon from school. kylee wanted to drive so she drove to ralphs and went grocery shopping with me. stupid me locked keys in trunk and had to have mom come down to ralphs and rescue us. eventually after going back to their house kylee decided to come home with me so she drove us to my house and we stayed up til after 4am. we put the groceries away, played wii fit, ate frozen french bread pizzas, played more wii fit, she had a lasagna tv dinner then we watched a jeff dunham dvd til she fell asleep on the couch and i took my computer into my bedroom. we had to get up early and go pick mom up from toyopros. the car dealer is in the same parkig lot and i showed them my gas cap and they ordered one and i came back later in the day and he put it on there and didn't charge me anything. picked dillon up from school again. went to best buy cuz of stupid ipod. they'll let me know when it's fixed. got completely lost trying to get home from there and ended up in norwalk in tears. mom stayed on the phone while i went into target and asked directions and stayed til she knew i was on the freeway the right way. i have a good mom.
i have to get dillon to school at like 8:30am and then pick the twins up at like 11:30am and who knows where kylee's gonna want/need to go. mom wont get her car back til the end of the day most likely they said. another really long day. i slept a little from like 11 to 2:30am or so and have been crying a lot before and since. working on a list now and trying not to si.
I want to give up. I want to stop living. I want to stop thinking. I want to stop being so stupid, so hopeless. I'm tired of the pain. I'm tired of the world.
Friday morning:
I took Dillon to school in the morning then went back to their house and waited for the twins to get out of school at 11:30am. Mom drove my car and we ran to the store and then to the kids school. Eventually mom heard from the mechanic who told her that her car is taken apart and they dont have a part and won't be ready for at least another day. Eventually mom and the twins drove me home and mom cleaned my kitchen while I kept the twins occupied with the wii fit. They left when it was time to pick up Dillon from school. I did a bit more Wii fit to get my 30 minutes. Then I napped. Ate a tv dinner and the last of the cheesecake and then eventually started working on a list.
Went to group and after waiting nearly half an hour to be called in the two of us (Mary and I) who are the only ones who still seem to attend were told that we won't be having group until March 3rd and if they don't find more members there will be no more Livingwell group.
Working on long list trying to be productive. Want apartment to be really clean before landlords show up in the morning. The bathroom is clean. Floor, toilet, sink, mirror, and tub have all been scrubbed within the last couple of days.
Sunday morning:
Grandma's sister, my great aunt Betty Jo, arrived last night from Arkansas. She has no electricity at all in her area and will not have any for a month or more. Mom and Dillon went and picked Betty Jo up from the airport while Kylee stayed home to help with the twins. Grandma didn't go because she wasnn't feeling well and it's been cold and wet for several days now with several more wet days forcasted.
Tuesday morning:
I give up on my ipod. It will not let me put anything on it. Every time I manage to get more than a few songs on it it gives an error and deletes everything off of the ipod. I need to see if we still have a warrenty on it. Mom bought one when she got it for me from Best Buy but that was Christmas of 2007. It may have only been a 1 year warrenty. I've spent trying to get my ipod to work for several days and nights now and nothing works.
Thursday Morning:
Went to pdoc on tuesday. cried between there and moms house. got gas in car, couldn't get gas cap on right. picked up dillon from school. kylee wanted to drive so she drove to ralphs and went grocery shopping with me. stupid me locked keys in trunk and had to have mom come down to ralphs and rescue us. eventually after going back to their house kylee decided to come home with me so she drove us to my house and we stayed up til after 4am. we put the groceries away, played wii fit, ate frozen french bread pizzas, played more wii fit, she had a lasagna tv dinner then we watched a jeff dunham dvd til she fell asleep on the couch and i took my computer into my bedroom. we had to get up early and go pick mom up from toyopros. the car dealer is in the same parkig lot and i showed them my gas cap and they ordered one and i came back later in the day and he put it on there and didn't charge me anything. picked dillon up from school again. went to best buy cuz of stupid ipod. they'll let me know when it's fixed. got completely lost trying to get home from there and ended up in norwalk in tears. mom stayed on the phone while i went into target and asked directions and stayed til she knew i was on the freeway the right way. i have a good mom.
i have to get dillon to school at like 8:30am and then pick the twins up at like 11:30am and who knows where kylee's gonna want/need to go. mom wont get her car back til the end of the day most likely they said. another really long day. i slept a little from like 11 to 2:30am or so and have been crying a lot before and since. working on a list now and trying not to si.
I want to give up. I want to stop living. I want to stop thinking. I want to stop being so stupid, so hopeless. I'm tired of the pain. I'm tired of the world.
Friday morning:
I took Dillon to school in the morning then went back to their house and waited for the twins to get out of school at 11:30am. Mom drove my car and we ran to the store and then to the kids school. Eventually mom heard from the mechanic who told her that her car is taken apart and they dont have a part and won't be ready for at least another day. Eventually mom and the twins drove me home and mom cleaned my kitchen while I kept the twins occupied with the wii fit. They left when it was time to pick up Dillon from school. I did a bit more Wii fit to get my 30 minutes. Then I napped. Ate a tv dinner and the last of the cheesecake and then eventually started working on a list.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
early tues morn
It's early tuesday. I've been following a long list. Adding 5 things to the list just about every time I get through it. I have to go to sleep sometime this morning though with the alarms set and get to group. I missed last week to take Kylee and Tricia to Disneyland for Kylee's birthday.
Have done a lot. The kitchen and livingroom have noticable differences of cleanliness. So does the bathroom. I've also read a little here and there and got through some emails. Entered very few sweeps though.
Have done a lot. The kitchen and livingroom have noticable differences of cleanliness. So does the bathroom. I've also read a little here and there and got through some emails. Entered very few sweeps though.
Monday, February 2, 2009
long blog written over who knows how long
Went to sleep around noon on Saturday and stayed in bed all day and night. Got up around 2:30am and went and laid on the couch and dozed for another hour or so then finally got up and started to work on a list.
Ate a yogurt around 7:30am which was the first thing i'd eaten in at least 24 hours. I did not and do not really even feel hungry. I do feel depressed and achey and tired.
Ate a couple small things throughout the day but not really tasted good or was really enjoyable even tho it was stuff I usually do enjoy such as a 100 calorie pack of chocolate chip cookies. I guess I'm not worth enjoying anything anyways so that's ok.
Had a budget gourmet type of tv dinner. Swiffered (dry and wet) most of the livingroom in small sections throughout the day. Only way I seem to get anything done is in really small parts at a time.
I finished reading "Multiple Blessings" today.
_____
Wrote the above several days ago. Later that night had a terrible thunder/lightning/hail storm that knocked out the electricity for over 4 hours. I sat on the couch with my ipod and a flashlight and some books. Took more ativan than usual because I totally do not deal well with the dark. The power went out right around midnight. Just when I was going to finish adding new sweeps and start on daily sweeps. I was so frustrated.
_____
It is now Saturday morning. Later today me and mom are supposed to go to the movies but I don't know what we are going to see.
_____
Mom and I saw Paul Bardt: Mall Cop. It was pretty funny. Written by Kevin James. Produced by Adamn Sandler. Was better than either of us expected. We went to the new Bob's Big Boy resturant before seeing the movie. We had a good time.
Pain got really bad though throughout the night. Lortab didn't even really help. Eventually slept and woke up in less pain but have felt exhausted all the time.
______________
It's now monday afternoon and I'm doing a mad rush cleaning the apartment before I go pay rent. I found tons of little tiny whiteish bugs crawling all over my counter and on one of the food cabinet shelves. I took everything out of the cabinet and checked all of the food stuff and there was no bugs anywhere on or in any of it that I could find. They were just on the shelf and counter. Online I discovered that they MAY be termites but I can't really tell for sure and will need to talk to landlord about it. I want to get my place clean tho in case they come over.
Called landlord. They are coming over wednesday to spray. She said to just give them the rent check then. Going to continue working on list for as long as I can get myself to stick to it and try to get this place really clean. I have a headache that keeps getting worse. Took some excedrin a bit ago.
Ate a yogurt around 7:30am which was the first thing i'd eaten in at least 24 hours. I did not and do not really even feel hungry. I do feel depressed and achey and tired.
Ate a couple small things throughout the day but not really tasted good or was really enjoyable even tho it was stuff I usually do enjoy such as a 100 calorie pack of chocolate chip cookies. I guess I'm not worth enjoying anything anyways so that's ok.
Had a budget gourmet type of tv dinner. Swiffered (dry and wet) most of the livingroom in small sections throughout the day. Only way I seem to get anything done is in really small parts at a time.
I finished reading "Multiple Blessings" today.
_____
Wrote the above several days ago. Later that night had a terrible thunder/lightning/hail storm that knocked out the electricity for over 4 hours. I sat on the couch with my ipod and a flashlight and some books. Took more ativan than usual because I totally do not deal well with the dark. The power went out right around midnight. Just when I was going to finish adding new sweeps and start on daily sweeps. I was so frustrated.
_____
It is now Saturday morning. Later today me and mom are supposed to go to the movies but I don't know what we are going to see.
_____
Mom and I saw Paul Bardt: Mall Cop. It was pretty funny. Written by Kevin James. Produced by Adamn Sandler. Was better than either of us expected. We went to the new Bob's Big Boy resturant before seeing the movie. We had a good time.
Pain got really bad though throughout the night. Lortab didn't even really help. Eventually slept and woke up in less pain but have felt exhausted all the time.
______________
It's now monday afternoon and I'm doing a mad rush cleaning the apartment before I go pay rent. I found tons of little tiny whiteish bugs crawling all over my counter and on one of the food cabinet shelves. I took everything out of the cabinet and checked all of the food stuff and there was no bugs anywhere on or in any of it that I could find. They were just on the shelf and counter. Online I discovered that they MAY be termites but I can't really tell for sure and will need to talk to landlord about it. I want to get my place clean tho in case they come over.
Called landlord. They are coming over wednesday to spray. She said to just give them the rent check then. Going to continue working on list for as long as I can get myself to stick to it and try to get this place really clean. I have a headache that keeps getting worse. Took some excedrin a bit ago.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
just blahness
I finished reading the Stephen King/Peter Straub book, The Talisman, the other day I guess it was and am now reading the book Multiple Bles8ings about and by the Gosselin family.
I'm not in a good mood which is not uncommon. I ended up SIing earlier. Just feeling like crap with no real reason that I can identify. I wish everything would just end. Everything being me. I just want to disappear.
I'm not in a good mood which is not uncommon. I ended up SIing earlier. Just feeling like crap with no real reason that I can identify. I wish everything would just end. Everything being me. I just want to disappear.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
last.fm
I have recently discovered last.fm. It is a website that keeps
track of what you listen to and you can see what your friends are
listening to and see how compatable you are musically with them. It
also lets you stream music and makes recommendations for other music
you may like. It involves installing software but hasn't seemed to
cause any problems with my computer.
I've been trying to get all my music into itunes and properly
labeled. I only have 3300 songs on my ipod but have nearly 4500 on
itunes currently. Need to transfer them to the ipod but want to fix
as many of the tags as possible first. Next time I plug my ipod
into the computer I also plan to move some videos I've taken and
photos onto it.
Speaking of photos I need to upload all the Christmas pictures and New Years and Dillon's birthday pictures to the computer and have a lot of pictures I haven't uploaded to photobucket yet either. There are many many things I haven't done I want or need to get done.
track of what you listen to and you can see what your friends are
listening to and see how compatable you are musically with them. It
also lets you stream music and makes recommendations for other music
you may like. It involves installing software but hasn't seemed to
cause any problems with my computer.
I've been trying to get all my music into itunes and properly
labeled. I only have 3300 songs on my ipod but have nearly 4500 on
itunes currently. Need to transfer them to the ipod but want to fix
as many of the tags as possible first. Next time I plug my ipod
into the computer I also plan to move some videos I've taken and
photos onto it.
Speaking of photos I need to upload all the Christmas pictures and New Years and Dillon's birthday pictures to the computer and have a lot of pictures I haven't uploaded to photobucket yet either. There are many many things I haven't done I want or need to get done.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
My brother is an adult!
For Dillon's 18th birthday I picked him up from school at lunch time and we went to Arby's and then headed to Disneyland Resort. The parks were not busy at all which was nice. He got a $69 disney gift card to use for merchandise within the parks and bought himself a hat and a tshirt and I spent part of it on a new necklace thingy to carry my annual pass and fastpasses in when we are there and several postcards. I am going to pay him back for those. After the park closed at 8pm we went to City Hall on Main Street and got directions to Sonic Drive-in resturant and ate there. Then we got majorly lost driving home and had to ask for directions twice, neither of the people we asked spoke english very well and made me even more confused.
On friday night I went over to their house for pizza and cake. I came home and worked on a list.
On Saturday night John, Danielle, and their friend Britney came over and we ordered pizza and played Wii Fit and Life: Twists and turns. I won the board game this time.
On friday night I went over to their house for pizza and cake. I came home and worked on a list.
On Saturday night John, Danielle, and their friend Britney came over and we ordered pizza and played Wii Fit and Life: Twists and turns. I won the board game this time.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
First real blog entry of 2009
It’s been a really long time since I actually posted a blog entry. Christmas and new years came and went. My mom went nuts with Christmas. The twins got a swingset. Kylee got a Dell Inspiron laptop. Dillon got a really high-end camera. I got a Wii and a Wii Fit. We all got many other things as well.
One of the twins got me a little tool set in a plastic box shaped like a hammer. The other got me these 3 little ceramic (or some kind of breakable) bears. Dillon got me a pretty blue blouse (that I haven’t worn yet) and a set of 5 tins of fruit flavored green teas. Pear, Strawberry, Raspberry, Kiwi, and Orange. Kylee got me an adapter so I can listen to my ipod through my cassette player in the car, 2 sets of thermals, 4 pairs of cute socks, and 2 Robin William films on DVD (Man of the Year and Flubber).
Besides the Wii and Wii Fit I also had many other gifts under the tree from mom and of course Santa Claus. In my stocking I had the usual cookies and candies including a bag of Pepperidge Farm Mint Millano cookies (my favorite!). There was also a $10 gift certificate for the cheap movie theater near the college. Under the tree was the book The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J.K. Rowlin. I got a 4GB flash drive. A pedometer. Rascal Flatts Greatest Hits Volume 1 CD, two of Jeff Dunham’s DVDs (Arguing with myself and Very special Christmas Special), and some clothes. A pink tinker bell sweat jacket, 2 pairs of jeans (blue and black), a gray Happy Bunny sweatshirt that says Whatever on it, a white Elmo sweatshirt, and a long sleeve pink blouse. I also got a VCR/DVD player.
On Christmas eve Santa came and visited with us and brought in a bag mom had set out with a gift for each of us. We took pics with him and he and the “elf” were both funny and it was a nice visit. I got the other book I was really wanting which is “Multiple Blessings” by Jon and Kate Gosselin with someone else as well.
After Santa came and went I took Dillon by Kmart (only store still open at that point) so he could get mom some perfume since he hadn’t gotten her anything yet since he couldn’t decide what to get. Then me and Dillon went to JohnJohn’s house. Kylee went to her girl friend Tricia’s house. At John’s we played a game called Boxers or Briefs and then did the white elephant gift exchange. I ended up with a candle and some bath salts. Dillon got lottery scratcher tickets. I think he won about $7 on them. I have been burning my Christmas cookie scented candle but have not tried the bath salt since I usually shower instead of takin actual baths.
I asked John and Danielle to come over on the 27th and they came over and helped me get the wii and my dvd player hooked up and JohnJohn got them both working and we played the wii fit for quite a while.
On New Years Eve John and Danielle picked me up and we went to Staters to get some snacks to take with us to Goofio and Brianna’s apartment. We had to drive way out through stinky dairy land to pick Emma up. Tricia and a lesbian couple were also at the apartment with their little dog. Brianna’s 4 year old daughter was there too as was their Chihuahua named Chacha. Their tv wasn’t working so we didn’t see the ball drop or anything. We sat around and munched on food and talked. There was a lot of alcohol being consumed but no one drove home drunk. Danielle only had a sip or two of a drink called Hot Sex or something like that. I had a glass of it. It’s kind of chocolatey and alcoholic. It was just one glass and I nursed it for quite a long time because I wasn’t sure how my stomach would react to alcohol now. I didn’t get even buzzed and I didn’t really have any more problems with my stomach than I do any other day.
I’ve tried to use the Wii fit every day. At first I was doing it 15 minutes a day. It has a little bank where it credits you minutes for each activity you do. It can take like half an hour for 15 minutes credit with instructions and going from activity to activity. Now I try to do 30 minutes a day and occasionally even do 45 minutes. I am sooooo sore now. All over. Especially my stomach.
John and Danielle brought over a friend of theres one night this past weekend. I am nice to this girl they brought but do not really care much for her. She is selfish. When I met her once before at JohnJohn’s nephew’s birthday party in the summer she insisted I give her a ride home when I left the party early because I was in so much pain I needed to get home and lay down and I didn’t have the energy in me to argue with her so I took her home, way out of my way and got lost and was so miserable and she didn’t even really say thank you. The Wii told me yesterday it was her birthday. I’m pretty sure she and John and Daniel and who knows who else went to Vegas this weekend to celebrate her 21st birthday.
Also a note to anyone in my address book: The invite to Winster went to entire email address book by mistake including the blog! I am so mad about that. Sorry to anyone who received an unwanted invite.
One of the twins got me a little tool set in a plastic box shaped like a hammer. The other got me these 3 little ceramic (or some kind of breakable) bears. Dillon got me a pretty blue blouse (that I haven’t worn yet) and a set of 5 tins of fruit flavored green teas. Pear, Strawberry, Raspberry, Kiwi, and Orange. Kylee got me an adapter so I can listen to my ipod through my cassette player in the car, 2 sets of thermals, 4 pairs of cute socks, and 2 Robin William films on DVD (Man of the Year and Flubber).
Besides the Wii and Wii Fit I also had many other gifts under the tree from mom and of course Santa Claus. In my stocking I had the usual cookies and candies including a bag of Pepperidge Farm Mint Millano cookies (my favorite!). There was also a $10 gift certificate for the cheap movie theater near the college. Under the tree was the book The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J.K. Rowlin. I got a 4GB flash drive. A pedometer. Rascal Flatts Greatest Hits Volume 1 CD, two of Jeff Dunham’s DVDs (Arguing with myself and Very special Christmas Special), and some clothes. A pink tinker bell sweat jacket, 2 pairs of jeans (blue and black), a gray Happy Bunny sweatshirt that says Whatever on it, a white Elmo sweatshirt, and a long sleeve pink blouse. I also got a VCR/DVD player.
On Christmas eve Santa came and visited with us and brought in a bag mom had set out with a gift for each of us. We took pics with him and he and the “elf” were both funny and it was a nice visit. I got the other book I was really wanting which is “Multiple Blessings” by Jon and Kate Gosselin with someone else as well.
After Santa came and went I took Dillon by Kmart (only store still open at that point) so he could get mom some perfume since he hadn’t gotten her anything yet since he couldn’t decide what to get. Then me and Dillon went to JohnJohn’s house. Kylee went to her girl friend Tricia’s house. At John’s we played a game called Boxers or Briefs and then did the white elephant gift exchange. I ended up with a candle and some bath salts. Dillon got lottery scratcher tickets. I think he won about $7 on them. I have been burning my Christmas cookie scented candle but have not tried the bath salt since I usually shower instead of takin actual baths.
I asked John and Danielle to come over on the 27th and they came over and helped me get the wii and my dvd player hooked up and JohnJohn got them both working and we played the wii fit for quite a while.
On New Years Eve John and Danielle picked me up and we went to Staters to get some snacks to take with us to Goofio and Brianna’s apartment. We had to drive way out through stinky dairy land to pick Emma up. Tricia and a lesbian couple were also at the apartment with their little dog. Brianna’s 4 year old daughter was there too as was their Chihuahua named Chacha. Their tv wasn’t working so we didn’t see the ball drop or anything. We sat around and munched on food and talked. There was a lot of alcohol being consumed but no one drove home drunk. Danielle only had a sip or two of a drink called Hot Sex or something like that. I had a glass of it. It’s kind of chocolatey and alcoholic. It was just one glass and I nursed it for quite a long time because I wasn’t sure how my stomach would react to alcohol now. I didn’t get even buzzed and I didn’t really have any more problems with my stomach than I do any other day.
I’ve tried to use the Wii fit every day. At first I was doing it 15 minutes a day. It has a little bank where it credits you minutes for each activity you do. It can take like half an hour for 15 minutes credit with instructions and going from activity to activity. Now I try to do 30 minutes a day and occasionally even do 45 minutes. I am sooooo sore now. All over. Especially my stomach.
John and Danielle brought over a friend of theres one night this past weekend. I am nice to this girl they brought but do not really care much for her. She is selfish. When I met her once before at JohnJohn’s nephew’s birthday party in the summer she insisted I give her a ride home when I left the party early because I was in so much pain I needed to get home and lay down and I didn’t have the energy in me to argue with her so I took her home, way out of my way and got lost and was so miserable and she didn’t even really say thank you. The Wii told me yesterday it was her birthday. I’m pretty sure she and John and Daniel and who knows who else went to Vegas this weekend to celebrate her 21st birthday.
Also a note to anyone in my address book: The invite to Winster went to entire email address book by mistake including the blog! I am so mad about that. Sorry to anyone who received an unwanted invite.
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Thursday, December 18, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
general stuff
I'm always hungry lately. I'm gonna have a hard time keepin my weight down if this continues. My weight has come back down a couple pounds since my halloween candy pig-outs though. I'm 172 or so now I think.
I'm so sick of the pain. Every so often it'll hit really bad all at once. EVERYTHING hurts with my back, stomach, and chest being the worst. I have a hard time breathing when this happens. Tears roll down my face and I grope around and take some pain meds and then do whatever I can to try to get a little relief. Half an hour or 45 minutes later the pain will start to lift a bit.
I'm thirsty all the time too. Like ten minutes after having something to drink I feel like I haven't had a drink in many many hours. My mouth is always so dry. Not sure why. Maybe it's from meds but I don't know which one(s).
I have been slowly cleaning and organizing my apartment. Very slowly but it's getting better little by little. I've also been reading a lot. I have several bibles I read, some are more devotionals than bibles though. I've been reading The Dead Zone by Stephen King. I've also been reading a book called Asylums which is a collection of essays on total institutions that focuses mostly on mental hospitals. I've also been going through old magazines and reading any interesting bits before I throw them out.
Mom came over monday morning right after taking the twins to school. She helped me clean my kitchen and bathroom real good and would have stayed and helped more but the twins had minimum day and got out at 11:30am and she just didn't have any more time.
I finished reading the Stephen King book, The Dead Zone, on Tuesday morning. I then started reading the nearest book I saw which happened to be a "Heartwarming inspirational romance" that was a "free gift" and says so on the cover. The book is "Rainbow's End" by Irene Hannon.
I keep getting itchy. Everything will itch and no matter what I do I can't make it stop. My nose and eyes drive me nuts, my back will drive me crazy, and everything else itches too all at the same time til I wish I could just scream or die!
I'm so sick of the pain. Every so often it'll hit really bad all at once. EVERYTHING hurts with my back, stomach, and chest being the worst. I have a hard time breathing when this happens. Tears roll down my face and I grope around and take some pain meds and then do whatever I can to try to get a little relief. Half an hour or 45 minutes later the pain will start to lift a bit.
I'm thirsty all the time too. Like ten minutes after having something to drink I feel like I haven't had a drink in many many hours. My mouth is always so dry. Not sure why. Maybe it's from meds but I don't know which one(s).
I have been slowly cleaning and organizing my apartment. Very slowly but it's getting better little by little. I've also been reading a lot. I have several bibles I read, some are more devotionals than bibles though. I've been reading The Dead Zone by Stephen King. I've also been reading a book called Asylums which is a collection of essays on total institutions that focuses mostly on mental hospitals. I've also been going through old magazines and reading any interesting bits before I throw them out.
Mom came over monday morning right after taking the twins to school. She helped me clean my kitchen and bathroom real good and would have stayed and helped more but the twins had minimum day and got out at 11:30am and she just didn't have any more time.
I finished reading the Stephen King book, The Dead Zone, on Tuesday morning. I then started reading the nearest book I saw which happened to be a "Heartwarming inspirational romance" that was a "free gift" and says so on the cover. The book is "Rainbow's End" by Irene Hannon.
I keep getting itchy. Everything will itch and no matter what I do I can't make it stop. My nose and eyes drive me nuts, my back will drive me crazy, and everything else itches too all at the same time til I wish I could just scream or die!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
preparing for inspection
This coming wednesday an inspector from the housing authority will be coming for the annual inspection of my apartment. Been working on cleaning it. Mom is supposed to come over one day this weekend because I tried to open the middle drawer of my nightstand and the whole front of the drawer just came off and she's going to try to fix it for me. She'll have the twins with her though.
I get really easily frustrated and really easily distracted so never really get much accomplished.
I get really easily frustrated and really easily distracted so never really get much accomplished.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
mail then sleep!
I'm trying to stick to a list. Trying to keep occupied and not give in to the desire/need to SI. I'm having a hard time not thinking about SI.
I'm washing clothes right now and listening to music.
The sun is up and I am thinking of brushing my teeth and hair and getting dressed and walking to the mailbox. I hate going outside but I haven't picked up my mail in quite some time and it gets dark early nowadays so I don't have much daylight left once I wake up in the afternoons.
___________
It's about 10am and I've brushed my teeth and gotten dressed. I'm going out to get the mail and then coming back and going to bed. I will set an alarm and try to go grocery shopping today.
I'm washing clothes right now and listening to music.
The sun is up and I am thinking of brushing my teeth and hair and getting dressed and walking to the mailbox. I hate going outside but I haven't picked up my mail in quite some time and it gets dark early nowadays so I don't have much daylight left once I wake up in the afternoons.
___________
It's about 10am and I've brushed my teeth and gotten dressed. I'm going out to get the mail and then coming back and going to bed. I will set an alarm and try to go grocery shopping today.
Lost the day
I had a doctor's appointment yesterday but missed it along with the rest of the day. My computer is kinda stupid and my G key is sticking and I'm really frustrated but workin on a list to keep busy. I cannot chat. Computer will not work well enough. I'll be tryin to back up my files so I can do somethin about this. The current list is:
1 Dead Zone
2 Stretch/exercise
3 Email
4 Livinroom
5 Bedroom
6 Bath/hall
7 Kitchen
8 Me
9 OLS
10 Student Bible
11 Floor
12 One Minute Bible
13 Music
14 Household Tips
15 Drawers
16 KJV
17 Xmas
18 Journals/Letters/Mail
19 Desk
20 Holy Bible
21 backup computer
22 Clothes
23 Women's Bible
24 Spark
25 Closet
26 Shopping
27 Asylums
28 Blog
29 Myspace/Facebook
30 Quotes
31 Surveys/Free/confusedalot
32 Journal
33 Sweeps
1 Dead Zone
2 Stretch/exercise
3 Email
4 Livinroom
5 Bedroom
6 Bath/hall
7 Kitchen
8 Me
9 OLS
10 Student Bible
11 Floor
12 One Minute Bible
13 Music
14 Household Tips
15 Drawers
16 KJV
17 Xmas
18 Journals/Letters/Mail
19 Desk
20 Holy Bible
21 backup computer
22 Clothes
23 Women's Bible
24 Spark
25 Closet
26 Shopping
27 Asylums
28 Blog
29 Myspace/Facebook
30 Quotes
31 Surveys/Free/confusedalot
32 Journal
33 Sweeps
Sunday, November 2, 2008
another multi-day post
Working on a list. A long list now. It varies a bit from run through to run through but the current list looks like this:
Pet Sematary
sweeps
livingroom
kitchen
bedroom
bathroom/hallway
me
email
student bible
magazines
one minute bible
clothes
king james version bible
spark
women's bible
myspace
blog
sweeps
holy bible
floor
closet
desk
pics
xmas
facebook
spam
music
journal
Mom came over after dropping kids off at school on Wednesday morning to help straighten things up before Danielle and Karen showed up. She hadn't left yet when Danielle and Karen got here but left right after they did. They sat and talked for just a few minutes and then we went for a walk. I hate the sun.
Spent Halloween doing not much. Watched a bunch of veggietales videos on youtube. I got dressed so that if any trick or treaters came to the door I was wearing something not stained etc and brushed my hair and stuff. Not a single person came to my door though. Lots of candy that I will have to eat all by myself now! I've had tons already. Bought 2 big bags of mixed candies at Ralphs on thursday evening and have already ate way too much of it.
I am almost constantly itchy and don't know why. Itchy everywhere. From the bottom of my feet to the top of my head and every where in between including my eyes, inside my ears, etc. I must be allergic to myself.
At 8:45am on saturday morning I am only on page 53 of 74 pages of Daily Sweeps. Not going to be able to do them all it seems.
I did not finish the sweeps saturday morning and as of 4amish sunday am on page 37 of 77 and that's with a spare hour due to the time change. Have been too easily distracted lately.
Pet Sematary
sweeps
livingroom
kitchen
bedroom
bathroom/hallway
me
student bible
magazines
one minute bible
clothes
king james version bible
spark
women's bible
myspace
blog
sweeps
holy bible
floor
closet
desk
pics
xmas
spam
music
journal
Mom came over after dropping kids off at school on Wednesday morning to help straighten things up before Danielle and Karen showed up. She hadn't left yet when Danielle and Karen got here but left right after they did. They sat and talked for just a few minutes and then we went for a walk. I hate the sun.
Spent Halloween doing not much. Watched a bunch of veggietales videos on youtube. I got dressed so that if any trick or treaters came to the door I was wearing something not stained etc and brushed my hair and stuff. Not a single person came to my door though. Lots of candy that I will have to eat all by myself now! I've had tons already. Bought 2 big bags of mixed candies at Ralphs on thursday evening and have already ate way too much of it.
I am almost constantly itchy and don't know why. Itchy everywhere. From the bottom of my feet to the top of my head and every where in between including my eyes, inside my ears, etc. I must be allergic to myself.
At 8:45am on saturday morning I am only on page 53 of 74 pages of Daily Sweeps. Not going to be able to do them all it seems.
I did not finish the sweeps saturday morning and as of 4amish sunday am on page 37 of 77 and that's with a spare hour due to the time change. Have been too easily distracted lately.
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