Friday, November 26, 2004

Thanksgiving is over!

Current Music: Martina McBride – A Broken Wing

Current Mood: Numb

Interesting Node: A self-censored Scapegoat is a dead Scapegoat

Interesting non-e2 url: Truth in advertising


Quote: “You can give without loving but you cannot love without giving” –Amy Carmichael

Trivia: Geyser is derived from an Icelandic word for "hot springs."

Joke: I used to work in an art supply store. We sold artists'
canvas by the yard, and you could get it in either of two
widths: 36 inches or 48 inches.

Customer: "Can you please cut some canvas for me?"

Me: "Certainly, what width?"

Customer: (confused and slightly annoyed) "Scissors?"

Thing(s) I learned since my last blogging: Daniel likes my car.

Thing(s) I accomplished since my last blogging: Um, not much.

And now on to my ramblings of the moment:
Thanksgiving is over and I’m glad. I haven’t been able to accomplish much lately. My concentration is practically non-existent most of the time.

I had to put up with Mando yesterday cuz it was thanksgiving. I was glad when it was time to go home.

Current music: John Mayer – Come Back To Bed

Current mood:

Last thoughts:

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

"You can listen as well as you hear"

Current Music: Bonnie Raitt – I can’t make you love me

Current Mood: Depressed

Interesting Node: I opened a fortune cookie for you yesterday

Interesting non-e2 url: Mother of all Excuses


Quote: “I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination.
Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is
limited. Imagination encircles the world.”
--Albert Einstein

Trivia: In 1972, who ended a 22-year ban on U.S. travel to China?

Joke: The teacher of the earth science class was lecturing on map

After explaining about latitude, longitude, degrees and
minutes the teacher asked, "Suppose I asked you to meet me
for lunch at 23 degrees, 4 minutes north latitude and 45
degrees, 15 minutes east longitude...?"

After a confused silence, a voice volunteered, "I guess
you'd be eating alone."

Thing(s) I learned since my last blogging: My therapist says I’m brave, and perhaps, according to his explanation, maybe, just maybe I am.

Thing(s) I accomplished since my last blogging: Started going to therapy.

And now on to my ramblings of the moment: *sigh* In the same week two of my friends lost their fathers. This disturbs me greatly. I wrote a node about my own father and how I’ll never tell him how I truly feel about him. Dawggy got to tell his father. I doubt Danielle did. Dawggy’s dad is now in his finally resting place, I think Danielle’s dad’s funeral is tomorrow. I have this obsessive repetitive thought that someone dear to me will leave this world soon. Deaths for some odd reason always seem to happen in threes. I don’t know if that’s just celebrities or common people as well but it seems to me that death always comes in three. Perhaps it has something to do with the Holy creature of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost. I don’t know. I’m just rambling.
I started therapy. There’s now a part time therapist at Citrus college I’ve seen last Friday and again on Monday and I go back and see him this Wednesday. His name is Abe and so far he’s a better therapist than ones I’ve had in the past, only time will tell if it’s truly helping. I’ve had to fight the tears both sessions. On Monday he talked about suicide, suicide as a creature preying on those who are hurting. He talked of the different way it manifests itself. I’d never thought about it the way he explained it, but in an odd way it made sense. He told me I should write an email or something to my sister telling her what he said and how I wouldn’t be able to deal with losing her. Just the thought of losing any of my siblings makes the tears flood to my eyes. Oh dear God please don’t take away the people I love any time soon.

Trivia answer: In 1972, the State Department ended a 22-year ban on U.S.
travel to China.

Current music: Joe Nichols – If nobody believed in you

Current mood:

Last thoughts: I’m tired. Tired of being tired. Tired of being achey. Tired of feeling so crappy. Tired of the sudden unexplained tears. Just tired.

Monday, November 8, 2004

Bedtime but blogging first

Current Music: Our Lady Peace - I'll be watching
you drown

Current Mood:           

Interesting Node:

Sad Little spiral-bound notebook diaries

Interesting non-e2 url:


Caption: My first car, washed and decorated as my 19th
birthday present.  They put a radio in it for me.

Quote: "Friendship improves happiness and abates
misery, by the doubling of our joy and the dividing of our grief"--Marcus
Tullius Cicero

Trivia: The electric eel's shocking power is so
great that it can overtake its victims while 15 feet away.



Attending a
wedding for the first time, a little girl whispered to her mother, "Why is the
bride dressed in white?" "Because white is the color of happiness, and today is
the happiest day of her life." The child thought about this for a moment, then
said, "So why is the groom wearing black?"


Thing(s) I learned since my last blogging: Going IP
still sucks.

Thing(s) I accomplished since my last blogging: Got on
an antidepressant (Lexapro) and had Zyprexa increased. 

And now on to my ramblings of the moment:

It's my bedtime.   
but I'm a
and I wanted to finish one more write-up which I still haven't finished. 
It's morning now, which for me is the end of the day.  I
know I"m weird.  I was in-patient for three days starting on November 1st. 
I'm glad it is over with.  Now I need to get an appointment with that
stupid doctor at the La Puente clinic.  Hospitals are supposed to set up an
appointment before discharging patients but they don't. 

Current music: Prince - Seven

Current mood:

Last thoughts: