Thursday, March 24, 2005

Wishing life would end

Current Music: 10,000 Maniacs - Everyday is like sunday

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Interesting Node: February 21, 2002. (The first thing I ever chinged).

Interesting non-e2 url: My donation page, please help.

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Caption: I really did see a pink elephant!

Quote: Carpe diem! Rejoice while you are alive; enjoy the day;
live life to the fullest; make the most of what you have.
It is later than you think.

Trivia: In 1493, who returned to Spain after his first voyage to
the New World?

Joke: I went to the store the other day, and I was in there for only
about 5 minutes. When I came out there was a damn cop writing
out a parking ticket.

So I went up to him and said, "Come on, buddy, how about giving
a gal a break?" He ignored me and continued writing the ticket.
So I called him a pencil-dicked Nazi. He glared at me and
started writing another ticket for having worn tires! So I
called him a piece of horse shit. He finished the second
ticket and put it on the windshield with the first.

Then he started writing a third ticket! This went on for about
20 minutes... the more I abused him, the more tickets he wrote.
I didn't give a shit. My car was parked around the corner. I
try to have a little fun each day. It's important at my age.

Thing(s) I learned since my last blogging: I’m a fool when it comes to money matters, among other things.

Thing(s) I accomplished since my last blogging: I can’t think of anything.

Current music: I want you to want me

And now on to my ramblings of the moment:
I’ve been very depressed. Tried pulling away from my friends but they just won’t let me do it. I scratched up my arm pretty good with a kitchen knife. That’s the most I’ve done in like two months. My room is a disaster, worse than it’s ever been. My abnormal psychology reading is coming along much slower than it should. Danielle’s birthday was yesterday and I haven’t even copied the CDs she wants yet. No idea where the CDs even are or the blank ones. I wish I could just die really, really soon. I need to really cut, not just scratches. I need to see the blood drip down my leg and arm. There are times I hate my bestest friends for talking me into getting rid of all my blades. Right now is one of those times.
My aunt Robin has moved in with us. I cannot stand this woman. She is very narcissistic. She finally got a job at Rubio’s (a Mexican restaurant of some sort) yesterday. So of course she had to celebrate by drinking again. She’s an alcoholic and has abused drugs for as long as I can remember. Grandma is letting her stay here rent-free and giving her gas money while I have to pay $300 a month to stay here. I wish Robin would go away. Every time she starts talking I feel an irresistible urge to self-injure, which lately has mainly been pulling my hair while she talks or banging my head while I hear her rambling on in the other room. I hate life and I wish my friends would let go so life could end. I’m sorry.

Current music: Darren Hayes - I like the way

Trivia answer: In 1493, Christopher Columbus returned to Spain after his
first voyage to the New World.

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Last thoughts: It’s only 1:20pm and I’m wishing the day would end, just as I do everyday all day and all night. I hate life. I hate just about everything.