I wish everyone would give up on me

Why do people have to CARE about me? Why can't everyone give up and leave me alone? If everyone would give up on me and stop being my friends I could kill myself without so much guilt. I don't want friends. I want everyone I care about to go away so I wouldn't hurt anyone when I ended my misery. But NO all you damn people that care about me make it impossible for me to end the misery. I have to ACT fine and shit. I'm so tired of feeling shitty. I'm so tired of being a useless flunky. But I can't end it because of stupid people caring about me. WHY DO PEOPLE CARE ABOUT ME? I'M USELESS! A waste of space, time, caring, etc etc...

GIVE UP ON ME DAMNIT!