Lost without you

It's just another day. Another pointless, useless day. I feel like crap. Hot. Achey. Depressed. Irritable. Lonely. Empty. Frustrated.

Harmony's computer died. Dawggy has spent the day trying to fix it. I called her earlier. We talked for a short while but she had to go help with her grandson. She said she'd call me back but I know she's not going to. Oh well. I dont have anything worth saying anyway. I never do. I hate myself. I hate life. I wish the world would end or God would just let me die.

I want to SI. I'm trying not to because everyone tells me not to. I know it only helps temporarily but it does help.

I'm sorry.....