I si'd again

I cut a little while ago. I was feeling hopeless and helpless and frustrated and just plain ol' upset. I cut my leg. Over an old cut. I'm feeling a little bit better now.

My room is still a mess but my family is all in bed. So I'm a bit more at peace. Not much, cuz my closet has exploded and my room was too cluttered even before that happened.

I wish I could get a node written. I just havne't been able to get in the mood to write one. I can't seem to get in the mood to do anything. I hate myself and I want to cease to exist.