it's hot

It was 100 degrees today. It's after midnight, I've got my fan on high and I'm still sweating.


Mom went with Kylee tonight to Kylee's banquet. She recieved her letter for choir and drama. She also became a thespian. I'm very proud of her. I didn't get to go because I had to stay home and help grandma with the twins. The twins were not on their best behavior. Grandma bitched the entire time mom was gone. I ended up cutting myself not long after mom finally got home. Dillon was at his friend's birthday party.

I can't stand being around grandma anymore. She's just so hateful. She makes me feel terrible. I don't want to live here anymore. I don't want to live at all, really. I hate myself and I feel totally stuck here in this house with grandma's constant bitching. I think I'd want to live if living on my own was an option.