Monday, October 19, 2009

goodbye meffypoo. how can you be dead??

Went eleven days before I screwed up and didn't write. Just plain lazyness. Didn't do anything. No writing, no cleaning. Nothing really. I slept most of the day away both Saturday and Sunday.

On saturday evening JohnJohn called and invited me to karaoke. I didn't get up until they called despite several efforts on and off for hours to talk myself out of bed. I went to karaoke with them and he paid for my Shirley Temple. I met them at Danielle's house and then Danielle drove and we picked up Emma who lives pretty close to the karaoke place they've been going to.

meff passed away 10/19/2009 at 2:52 a.m. CST - He's at peace now.

I just found out my good friend who I called meffypoo died. Rodney was such a good guy. On friday he had the flu. When I was about to go to bed sunday morning his wife shyla instant messaged me and told me he was in the hospital and had been put on a ventilator. He had pneumonia and his kidney's were failing. She asked me to pray for him and I did. And now he's gone. It was just a few days ago I was joking with him. He was so funny and so smart. Was always willing to listen and was one of those people who would talk about anything. I loved talking to him. He was so selfless. Hated to ask for anything but counted me as a friend and opened up to me and I opened up to him. He helped me with computer problems many many times. Never asked anything in return except friendship. He called me jennellybelly. I called him meffypoo. I just can't believe he's gone. Just gone. He had the damn flu. Everyone gets the flu. Shyla said yesterday it was the swine flu. even so it still was the flu one day and then two days later he's DEAD. how can he be dead? why are so many people dieing? Sergio's dad, danielle's grandma, meff...all so close together. who's next? i wish i was the one to die. i'm sick of watching as people drop like flies.

I feel torn between not wanting to be alone and wanting to pull away from EVERYBODY so that I have no one else to lose. If I have no one in my life to care about then theres no one who can hurt me (whether they mean to or not).



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