late night short ramble

It’s one thirty on Friday morning. I have to be at the clinic at 9:30. We’re going bowling. Then I have to hurry over to my moms house to go to the neurologist.

Word of the day:
egress \EE-gress\, noun:
1. The act of going out or leaving, or the right or freedom to
leave; departure.
2. A means of going out or leaving; an exit; an outlet.

intransitive verb \ee-GRESS\:
To go out; to depart; to leave.

It’s 2:40am. Not long ago I ate some peanut butter and crackers then drank a large cup of orange juice. I’m at 211 now. Fat. Ugly. Stupid. I shouldn’t eat at night. I really shouldn’t eat at all or just once a day instead of the 5 or 6 times I have been eating. I want to cut now because I was so stupid and ate so much today. I’m so pathetic.

Tomorrow morning, well its today now, I have to be at the clinic about 9:30am. We’re going bowling. Then I have to rush to my moms house so we can go to my neurology appointment. I need to talk to my case manager, Grace. I was supposed to go shopping with her today but I forgot about my appointment. I need another pdoc appointment cuz I missed my last one and am out of meds.

Grandma’s yelling at me to go to sleep cuz it’s 3am. I don’t feel like sleeping though. 