Where do we go now?

I feel so hopeless. I feel so helpless. No one can help me. Grace is so nice and spent a lot of time talking to me on the phone this weekend. I still want to cut though. I haven't since this morning.



I wish I could die without hurting anyone. I can't commit suicide. One reason is that I'd fail at it again and just end up in the hospital and not trusted to be on my own. Another reason is my family and friends. I would hurt them badly.

My internet won't stay connected and it's getting me really frustrated.