feeling like shit

iache all over. i want to si. iwant to gohide in bed. i'm hot. i have a headache. i dont feel like doing anything. i'mscared i wont get my school work all done in time because i'm having such a hard time working on it. what the hell is wrong with me? i'm such a failure. i'm such a loser. i can't ever relax and be happy. i understand why people turn to drugs. I wish i could do drugs and feel different. the feelings would probably last longer than those from cutting.