pulse

The chant of die bitch die is relentless. the "you need to make the pulse stop" isn't helping either. i've been crying. crimson. i've been hiding in bed. i am a mess today. i want so bad to be a selfish bitch and die. i don't havea plan tho. I don'tknow how to successfully kill myself so i can't even try. i have to get my school work done cuz i cant handle flunking again. i dont knowif i can do it. i'm gonna go hide and maybe cry some more dont know what kind of tears